I totally get bummed out when I get excited about something and my friends and family poopoo me. Why can't they just be happy for me about something, ANYTHING. What bothers me most is when I quit whatever it is I'm jazzed about (because I was constantly being poopooed and ridiculed) and people get all upset with me about it. FUCK THEM.
I'm also tired of ugly cocky bastard tinking I'm "in love" with them just because I talk to them and am friendly. When I say ugly, I mean UGLY. No I'm not interested in you, the fact that you're my coworker makes you persona non grata in the first place. If we weren't coworkers, I wouldn't have given you a second glance. So quit walking across the street to avoid interaction with me.
I spend many of my days feeling very unloved. I don't know why, and I don't like it. Not one bit.
God I'm bored, and REALLY hope I can get a new job soon.


ha. all true
SCORPIO - The Addict (October 23 – November 21)
EXTREMELY adorable. Loves to joke. Very good sense of humor. Will try almost anything once. Loves to be pampered. Energetic. Predictable. GREAT kisser. Always get what they want. Attractive. Loves being in long relationships. Talkative.. Loves to party but at times to the extreme... Loves the smell and feel of money and is good at making it but just as good at spending it! Very protective over loved ones... HARD workers. Can be a good friend but if disrespected by a friend, the friendship will end. Romantic. Caring.

existance is overrated. and exhausting.

Writer's Block: Secret song
What's the most embarrassing CD or track in your music library? How often do you listen to it? Do you share it with your friends or keep it to yourself?

Psh, what's to be embarrassed about? ALL my music is crappy, or weird, or whatever... and I'm proud of it.


so it's been a officially a week with my dreads in. They're coming along better than I thought they'd be doing at a week. Look more developed than many I see in photos. But here I am comparing myself to others again which is pointless. Not a single person has said anything at work, I have been wearing them up and don't plan on pointing them out to my stuffy coworkers. I've had one chick at a restaurant snort, "now THAT's classy," where I thanked her, and all the rest have been positive comments. It's not like I stopped washing my hair. My mother has yet to find out. It's just hair right? Eh, so that's how it is. I don't plan on changing my lifestyle or start smoking weed or any such nonsense. Yah.

But I am super itchy. :P

Writer's Block: What is your life sentence?
How would you describe your life so far in a six-word sentence? How often would your 'life sentence' change?

I. am. always. bored. in. life.

at work
I can honestly say that I've never worked in a place where more people bother me. I think they bother me because they willingly talk about me when I am sitting a mere three feet away from them. Makes me want to willingly smack them upside the head. Perhaps I am biased, but sometimes I've noticed about the people who live in Carson City is that they have absolutely no manners. AT ALL. The bums living in the gutter of Reno have more manners than "society" of people who live in this town.

hiring freeze
hello. something like, 12 people where I work got promoted right before the hiring freeze was implemented. I was not amongst the 12. You cannot say it was for lack of trying, I've had 3 interviews since I worked for the state. This sucks and makes me sad and a little bit picked on. Like if I knew the right people (like many of the people who promoted) I wouldn't be stuck like I am. Some of the people who were promoted don't deserve it and some do.
*sigh* just sour grapes I guess. I hate how our world is at the moment.

That's where I am.

So, I had a job interview last Tuesday, was kinda hoping to get the job, mainly for the money. I'm assuming that's why I didn't get it. MY heart just wasn't in it. A cool person got hired for the position and a not so cool person but whatever. I'm trying not to let my loser coworkers drag me down and tell me I'm a failure for not getting it. I'm a believer that when it's right, it's right. It'll come to me when it's supposed to.
There's a dog for adoption, a black male pug. I've been wanting another pug for a while now and get Talula a little friend, but the time isn't right for that either. If I had a yard or a patio, it'd be a little different. That and I don't want to lose my job and have to get rid of my dogs.
I found a really cool sewing machine at Jo-anns that I want to buy. I've decided to start making my own clothes and purses. I'm a little tired of owning all these clothes that other people (i.e, my mom, the retail stores) tell me I should wear. To be honest with you, it's a little depressing not having any outward personality, particularly if you're as weird as me. SO I've been looking for and purchasing fabric remnants that are slightly unusual, manly from Japanese websites. SO, I've set up an Etsy account and will put some things up there once I get the ball rolling.
I've also been needing to look for an alternative transportation. The town I live in SUCKS and has no public transport, and I refuse to take a cab. On another downside, every location here is too much of a walk for me, since it's so spread out. I've been thinking of buy a scooter or skateboard, depending exactly how poor I am at the time.

Ok, just a little update.
Kristen, OUT!


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